I know the past month or so I've been neglecting my blog. That's due to many reasons. I've been going through a tough time emotionally, my physical health hasn't been up to par, and I've just wanted to be out and enjoy my summer. I wanted to get myself back on track and be who I use to be but, with a better insight on the world and less naivety. In order to do that I needed some time to myself and to be honest with you, I'm still going through that process. None the less, I realized that this blog is a part of who I am. It contains tidbits about my life, helps me to dive deeper into my love of fashion, and provides a portal for me to express myself. It keeps me connected and plugged into the world of fashion in a way that I don't get to share with many people I know.
There's been a lot of things going on with me. I'm happy to write that I've finally got my SLR. It's a Nikon D3000. The D3000 is a starter SLR but I love it. I've also been hitting the gym a lot more and have had the courage to get back in front of the camera so I could put some photos of myself up on the blog. I have several different shoots to post for you and I'll get those up soon. Better yet, my friend let me borrow a tripod so that I can take photos of myself. Unfortunately it doesn't extend all the way up so I've got to put in on a table or something to get a head to toe shot of myself, but its a start.
I've also been learning to value myself again and have come to the realization that I'm worth so much more that what I've been receiving from some people. You know, the thing about completely giving your heart to someone is that you allow them to manipulate you and hurt you in a way where you can ultimately lose yourself. Of course, you always believe that those you open up to are the people who you can trust with your heart and emotions, unfortunately that's not always the case. Its been a painful climb for me to find myself again after feeling like I've had my world torn apart. My goal now is to stabilize myself and become the woman I was once proud of. The woman who was confident in herself, open to possibilities, and ready for the world. I'm still working on getting there and after cleaning up some parts of my life and reevaluating myself and those around me, things have been looking up. Each day things get easier and easier for me. It's sort of like a baby learning to walk.
Love, hugs, and kisses,